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How do you measure, measure a year? How about Love? How about Love? How about Love? (Rent- the movie)

Today is the 1 year anniversary of my moving out of J's house. I am divorced, jobless and in possession of my two girls.

I am also the happiest most content I have ever been in my entire life. I smile and laugh more, Not just in frequency but I smile and laugh with my whole mouth. My heart and soul are light, my spirit is free and I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Why?
Because God loves me. I have submitted and committed myself to him with all of my heart. I asked him to help me, I asked him to heal me. I asked him to guide me and teach me. He asked me to do some hard things. Divorce, quit my job, and then the hardest..Trust him.

But it has been an amazing year and God has responded to my cries. I fought him, I fought myself and I fight society every day. But He knows me and plans ahead. He kept every promise he has made me. The ones He showed me that are in store for the future are so wonderful I know He will keep them too. I love him with all of my heart.

If you haven't found him, or haven't found him with everything good and bad that is in you, stop waiting, stop searching, stop hiding. Go to Him. I promise on my heart and soul, it will be worth it.

Good night, and God bless.

Tonya